Wednesday, 20 November 2013
Ironically that statement makes you think. I over think things way too much, to the point where I turn something completely on it's head and create chaos. The chaos really only affects me, as the chaos is all inside my head.
The other day I got sent a lovely message, apparently I helped put a smile on someone's face without even knowing it. I was having a bad week last week and a bad weekend inside my head but by clicking like on a Facebook page and writing a comment I helped brighten someone's not so good day. Something as simple as a like button made someone smile, that bought me straight out of my own head and my own worries. I did my personal life mission (to make others smile) without even realising it. I created happiness inside sadness.
We all need to wake up and get out of our heads and stop thinking so much. Just be!!!! Just live!!!! Make others smile and you'll smile too.
Who can you make smile today?
(A month of ' a blank canvas' my creative space - No. 5 Happy, No. 7 Makes you think, No 23 A Creative Quote)
Friday, 15 November 2013
I had a chiropractic appointment on Monday just for a regular checkup. While I was there I mentioned I was getting some pins and needles in my left hand just in my ring finger and pinky. He checked it out and told me I'm in the early stages of carpel tunnel. Oh great - just what every data entry person wants to hear right? WRONG. This wasn't news I wanted to hear but sadly it was news I needed to hear.
Hearing I'm developing carpel tunnel has given me a serious kick up the butt - what do I want to do with my life. I can't keep processing data all day every day, it's damaging my health (plus I've been doing it for 2.5 years now).
Telling this news to work was not fun, it then involved having to get a clearance certificate from a doctor just so I can return to work. Then the doctor confirmed yes I do have it in my left wrist and now I need a CT scan (which was done today) and then a visit to a specialist to have a nerve conduction study done.
MJ and I have made the decision for me to drop my Thursdays to help with the pain while I start the long search of looking for a new job - not the best thing to be doing just before Christmas. Now I'm stuck with the dilemma again of what do I want to do? I'm sick of working in an office.
MJ asked me to work out what do I want to achieve in life. That was an interesting question and this is what I came up with.
"I would like to educate people on healthy achievable living. I'd like to educate them through my blog, in person, my own ebooks/books, recipe books, any way I can".
Now I just need to work out how I can do this and how can I make a living out of it. Can it be done? How can it be done? So many questions, not sure where to find answers.
Maybe this hand injury is a blessing in disguise as it's forcing me to re-evaluate my life and how I want to make my mark on this planet.
What do you want to achieve in life? Are you achieving it? If so how are going about it?
(A month of "a blank canvas" my creative space - No. 4 hands)
Sunday, 3 November 2013
Today I sit here with a sense of peace I didn't think was possible on Friday afternoon.
You see on Friday I had a mini meltdown of sorts. I felt so stressed, overwhelmed and pressured I crack, I was a mess, I was crying and making no sense when try to speak. I felt like I was running out of time to do all the things I wanted to do and achieve. I struggle with stress and anxiety and sometime it all just catches up on me and hits me across the back of the head with a hammer and sends me flying to the ground.
But like I said today I sit here with a sense of peace. How? Why?
I realised after I calmed down from my meltdown that I was responsible for being stressed, overwhelmed and was putting way too much pressure on myself. I was listening to too many people opinions and taking on what they thought was best. I was trying to achieve everything at once and wanting the results now and not waiting for later. I was placing my life, my heart and my happiness in the world's hands and not placing it my hands or God's hands.
Today I heard a wonderful speaker at an event speaking about the power of forgiveness, something I've been really struggling with myself lately. It moved me to tears and I don't cry in front of people (except close family). It was as if the message was written for me (God can be amazing in that way) and so I feel at peace right now.
I still need to work on a lot of things including forgiveness but I feel calm tonight knowing that I can and will get through this and shine brighter on the other side.
I can't achieve everything at once, life is a journey after all, but I'll get there and just let a few things go for the moment, step back and relax, for I will achieve all I've set out to achieve but in time and not today.