If you follow me on Facebook or Instagram you may have noticed last week I shared some rather big and exciting news. But I'll share it again now.
I'm now 17 weeks along and I'm due around the 8th of April next year.
I've had a lot of sickness over the past number of weeks, so much so that's why I haven't been around here. I get headaches looking at screens for too long (which is slowly getting better) and I've just been wiped out from illness (thankfully I did miss out of the throwing up part).
Its been hard to process the fact this is really happening, growing up you always think one day I'll have kids but it's now actually happening. My tummy is getting bigger (which is big adjustment) and annoyingly my depression/anxiety has been greatly playing up and now that family, friends and work mates know I'm getting inundated with advice (not all helpful) and people won't stop looking at my tummy, which feels quite awkward.
I've been living with a lot fear since I found out, it gets so bad some days that I struggle to breath or function properly. After experiencing the heartbreak of 2 miscarriages last year it's been hard to get overly excited this time round. I know this time is different and I'm further along than I ever got with the other 2 but it's still there in the back of my mind "please don't lose this one".
The hospital I am going through has kindly set me up with a community nurse who will help me through out the pregnancy and then until the child is 2 years old. She'll check in on me, talk with me, help me with things I need, then once the baby is here, help me learn how to settle the baby, feed the baby, do health checks and help me cope - and all this for free - thanks NSW government. They are also offering me free counselling too, so that I'm not going through this alone.
It's so wonderful to know that hospitals take post/prenatal depression seriously and offer amazing free support, yes it feels strange to have to rely on others for help but I want to give my baby the best chance they can have and myself a chance to enjoy this new life.
I've started prenatal yoga nearby and it's an amazing experience. They really focus not just on keeping you active but helping you connect and bond with your baby before they've even arrived.
It's going to be a journey and a half these next few months and beyond. I'll be sharing my ups and downs along the way not only to help myself but in the hopes of helping others too.
How did you cope with your pregnancy journey? Please share I'd love to hear your insights.
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